What is next

So each day has it ups and downs. I, of course would really like it to be steady, it does not have to be all high but just a straight line. I find that work takes most of my energy. I am feeling better so it is easier to be at work. I come home and just too tired to do much. I find it draining because I am feeling better but it is taking all of that from me. The energy that I have started to have gets taken up at work. I guess that is really the best way to say it.

So I do not know who all is reading this now but I thought that I would let people know and maybe understand the living situation. I am staying in a house, where it provides me comfort. It is the place that I had decided to make my home. It is what I need right now and he has been so good about it. I know that many people think that I should be moving out ASAP I am not able to. Moving is a very stressful situation, while suffering from depression I have not been able to handle stressful situations. I start thinking about what I need to do and the anxiety settles in. Today I looked at the dishes and thought about packing and I could not do it. Believe me I feel guilty staying here and thinking that I have put him out of his place but he understands. He knows what is going on.

I know what I have to think about to do in the future, moving and the dog what will happen with her. These are all things that I know that I have to think about but I am not in the place to make permanent decisions. Thanks everyone for asking out of concern, I will be thinking about things and looking on to things. I will let you know when I am ready to move on.